A Beating Heart with a Broken Soul

For you I had to let you go

For you my pain did not show

For you i did not grow

For you i broke my soul

For you my heart did not beat

For you i could not sleep

For you i did not keep

For you my trust to weep

How can i feel better

With your rainy weather

One day we will be together

One day we will be forever

For you my words always meant

For you they could be bent

For you my hope you rent

For you my love you spent

For you i'm still singing

but 'm not

For you i'm still believeing

but i'm not

For you i'm still leaving

but i'm not

For you i'm still breathing

but i'm not

Last Shot

can you please help me

determine this line between love and hate

were you really my friend

or just the cursed shadow

that cross my every path?

I can't save my soul

but I can show you how

to go down that road

things aren't so bad here

in my deep hole

it keeps the pain away

it keeps me away from you

you brought it upon yourself

don't lean on me anymore

lies have built my empire

but they ruled your kingdom

but where is my freedom

unrealistic is as unrealistic seems

these shadows are following back into me

I am damned from every moment I stole

I was damned before I knew my role

forever I am alone

and alone I must desire

for no one will come to me

no one will take me higher

but I can see them

I defy them

but I can't love them

so give it all you got

cuz this is your last shot.

Artificial

Artificial is a word that comes to mind
the word I'm trying to find.

Everything is so artificial
even all the people.
Everything is so artificial
even all the people.

These pages that I've written are not real
not my words I steal.

You were always in my mind
even when I couldn't find the time.

These lies are breaking me down.
Not everything that goes around comes around.

Everything is so artificial
even all the people.
Everything is so artificial
even all the people.

I can't make these words go away
take me away, take me away.

Not even the ink on my hands has shown
haven't even shown how much I've grown

but I can try it
not to fight it

every thing is so fake
down to every chemical I take

but I'm not gonna hide it any more
not gonna bury it anymore
not gonna conceal it anymore
not any more.

Because everything is so artificial
even all the people.
Everything is so artificial
even all the people.

My bell is about to ring
but even if its the last song I sing
These are the words that I mean
the words that I mean.