I Am

Don't prevent me from being me

you cant influence me anymore

this road to finding myself has
become more troubled with everyday

but here I am stripped of everything

its not like it was really mine anyway

this nakedness is starting to sink in

I'm stuck in the middle

and addicted to lifes disappointments

this shame and guilt is
overwhelming

to points where I cant
breathe I cant feel

every sensation is lost, forgotten

I am more raw that your diamond

I am more polite that your parents

I am stronger that you brothers

I am more responsible that your sisters

I am smarter that you greatest teacher

I am more than you

I am not a fake

but I am your hypercrite

I am your misfortune

I am your puppet

YOU ARE MY DESTRUCTION

Thoughts From the Non-Stop Mind of Alexandra

My list of experiences
sometimes doent seem quite as long.

But the few I have no one
else will have to endure.

I write things deeper
than seem

To keep the use of imagination
and creativeness alive.

Is whats out there for the
missing piece

To my life long unfinishing puzzle
or sometimes the puzzle itself?

I'm a Loser

I'm a loser
I'm a lunatic
I'm a sinner
I'm crazy enough to be locked away

These pills that your givin me
are making me
be a loser
be a lunatic
be a sinner
be crazy enough to be lock away

these lies that your talling me
are not setting me free
I'm a loser
I'm a lunatic
I'm a sinner
I'm crazy enough to be locked away
the yelling and screaming
won't be breaking me

My Darkside

How can you sit there
with your shadow provoking
leading me to the door
beseeched me to insecurity
imprisoning me woth fear
showing me you white face of gratitude
stain me red and leave me to you creatures thirst
but you hounds have mothing on me
dark is all i have
all that i know
all there is
so here i am
forgotten
on my Darkside