I am Free

Fly to me and

Sing to me

You can save me

Rise to me and

Cry to me

I am free

Your hypocritical angels have sweetened every dose

Except your beloved charmers are but merely ghosts

Please will someone save me

Save me from this inhumanity

One day you will have you worst

And I will not be there to satisfy you thirst

Is your kingdom just as grand

When its built with only sand

And as the wind and rain blows on

I will still be gone

Will someone..

Fly to me and

Sing to me

You can save me

Will someone..

Rise to me and

Cry to me

I am free

Dear Diary

Dear Diary I have come to you again
to tell you of my latest sin

My secrets to you i will confide
forgetting the drakness behind
no fingers pointed at my skin
for you protection has sucked me in

Dear Diary I have come to you again
to tell you of my latest sin

The heartaches have turned to obssession
with self-medication of sleep deprivation
however i know where your comfort lies
it begins where my heart dies

Dear Diary I have come to you again
to tell you of my latest sin

A Beating Heart with a Broken Soul

For you I had to let you go

For you my pain did not show

For you i did not grow

For you i broke my soul

For you my heart did not beat

For you i could not sleep

For you i did not keep

For you my trust to weep

How can i feel better

With your rainy weather

One day we will be together

One day we will be forever

For you my words always meant

For you they could be bent

For you my hope you rent

For you my love you spent

For you i'm still singing

but 'm not

For you i'm still believeing

but i'm not

For you i'm still leaving

but i'm not

For you i'm still breathing

but i'm not

Last Shot

can you please help me

determine this line between love and hate

were you really my friend

or just the cursed shadow

that cross my every path?

I can't save my soul

but I can show you how

to go down that road

things aren't so bad here

in my deep hole

it keeps the pain away

it keeps me away from you

you brought it upon yourself

don't lean on me anymore

lies have built my empire

but they ruled your kingdom

but where is my freedom

unrealistic is as unrealistic seems

these shadows are following back into me

I am damned from every moment I stole

I was damned before I knew my role

forever I am alone

and alone I must desire

for no one will come to me

no one will take me higher

but I can see them

I defy them

but I can't love them

so give it all you got

cuz this is your last shot.

Artificial

Artificial is a word that comes to mind
the word I'm trying to find.

Everything is so artificial
even all the people.
Everything is so artificial
even all the people.

These pages that I've written are not real
not my words I steal.

You were always in my mind
even when I couldn't find the time.

These lies are breaking me down.
Not everything that goes around comes around.

Everything is so artificial
even all the people.
Everything is so artificial
even all the people.

I can't make these words go away
take me away, take me away.

Not even the ink on my hands has shown
haven't even shown how much I've grown

but I can try it
not to fight it

every thing is so fake
down to every chemical I take

but I'm not gonna hide it any more
not gonna bury it anymore
not gonna conceal it anymore
not any more.

Because everything is so artificial
even all the people.
Everything is so artificial
even all the people.

My bell is about to ring
but even if its the last song I sing
These are the words that I mean
the words that I mean.

Religious Hypocrisy

Lord God is my savior

or atleast I was told so

he created us in his image

he loved us most

but from the tree of knowledge we can't eat?

with much to suffer in this world of temptation

with only him is where our happiness lies?

why is it that only rewards and acknowledgement

come from our struggles and injustices?

the be faithful every second of our lives

but while we only have a belief based on hearsay and magic?

foolishness has come to my conclusion

this is my religious hypocrisy

to be and go through what every Christian is supposed to

but w/o knowing its understanding or it's importance

what is the point in that?

I have been told what to believe my whole life

so where's the line between my religion and my brainwashing?

I Am

Don't prevent me from being me

you cant influence me anymore

this road to finding myself has
become more troubled with everyday

but here I am stripped of everything

its not like it was really mine anyway

this nakedness is starting to sink in

I'm stuck in the middle

and addicted to lifes disappointments

this shame and guilt is
overwhelming

to points where I cant
breathe I cant feel

every sensation is lost, forgotten

I am more raw that your diamond

I am more polite that your parents

I am stronger that you brothers

I am more responsible that your sisters

I am smarter that you greatest teacher

I am more than you

I am not a fake

but I am your hypercrite

I am your misfortune

I am your puppet

YOU ARE MY DESTRUCTION

Thoughts From the Non-Stop Mind of Alexandra

My list of experiences
sometimes doent seem quite as long.

But the few I have no one
else will have to endure.

I write things deeper
than seem

To keep the use of imagination
and creativeness alive.

Is whats out there for the
missing piece

To my life long unfinishing puzzle
or sometimes the puzzle itself?

I'm a Loser

I'm a loser
I'm a lunatic
I'm a sinner
I'm crazy enough to be locked away

These pills that your givin me
are making me
be a loser
be a lunatic
be a sinner
be crazy enough to be lock away

these lies that your talling me
are not setting me free
I'm a loser
I'm a lunatic
I'm a sinner
I'm crazy enough to be locked away
the yelling and screaming
won't be breaking me

My Darkside

How can you sit there
with your shadow provoking
leading me to the door
beseeched me to insecurity
imprisoning me woth fear
showing me you white face of gratitude
stain me red and leave me to you creatures thirst
but you hounds have mothing on me
dark is all i have
all that i know
all there is
so here i am
forgotten
on my Darkside

Perfection Is Dull

Hiding away into the deepest of the darkest depths.
Seeking for the last grasp of denial hoping to escape reality.
Does it matter if denial is our friends or foe?
Can we truly be forgotten in out fantasy.
Humans search the world to find their greatest mystery
But never fully indulge in its greatness for they are afraid of its hurt
Strive for perfection
When already revealed that perfection is dull?

Take Me Away

I wanna get out
Out of your shoes
Out of your line of fire
Is it never enough to please you
Your exspectations just to high

Take me away
Out of this place
Take me to the moon that glows for eternity
Take me to the depths of the sea
Let me find its wonders
Why am I still here?

The sun is setting
Darkness is coming
Drowning in its secrets
That will never be told

Take me away
Out of this place
Take me to the moon that glows for eterinty
Take me to the depths of the sea
Let me find its wonders
Why am I still here?